Wednesday, May 4, 2011

You are more

For the past few weeks, I have been in a pressure cooker. The heat has slowly been increasing with each passing day. But I didn't even realize I had hit the boiling point until yesterday.

That was when I erupted into a blubbering mess. I couldn't stop crying. No matter what anyone said to me, it seemed to make me cry even more. A simple, "Hi. How are you?" caused me to run into the restroom to hide my tears. It was ugly.

As women, I think most of us have had those moments. We all go through times when the pressure seems to build.

  • I have had five baskets of clean laundry sitting in the same spot for a week now. Meanwhile, five more baskets of dirty laundry have accumulated throughout the house.
  • I haven't had time to go to the grocery store so my kids and I have eaten so much fast food it's not even a treat anymore.
  • I have deadlines for my job that are looming over my head.
  • I'm feeling totally burned out with home school and rushing to get things done everyday.
  • My kids have baseball practice and soccer practice nearly every night of the week.
  • It's all been compounded by the fact I've been single momming it for a week. And just when we thought my husband was going to come home, he got stranded by a cancelled flight in one of the last places on earth I would wanted him to be: Japan.

Of course, then there are all of the other pressures, some of which are real and others imagined.

  • I need to be a wonderful wife.
  • I need to be a better friend.
  • I need to be beautiful.
  • I need to run a 5K.
  • I need to read the Bible in a year.
  • I need to read at least 60 of the books on the list of the top 100 books ever written.
  • I need to write on my blog.
  • I need to take a photo everyday.
  • I need to watch American Idol.
  • I need to send thank you notes to at least six people.
  • I need to pay the bills.
  • I need to sign up my kids for activities for the summer.
  • I need to plant some flowers.

And if I do all of those things and do them well, then I will feel good about myself. If I can hold it all together, look good, do great work, and have children who are clean and well-mannered, then I will be successful. I will be worth something.

Well, yesterday, I didn't achieve any of those things. In fact, I failed in every single area, and I was feeling pretty low. I am thankful that in the middle of my ugly cry, a group of friends gathered around me and told me that they loved me for who I am and not what I do. And they reminded me of something very important.

My worth does not depend on any of those things.

I am MORE than all of that.

I am God's workmanship. (Eph. 2:10) The New Living translation says, I am "God's masterpiece." I am created by him, and I am renewed by Christ Jesus. I was bought at a price. Nothing that I have done or ever could do will buy my worth. Nope, I'm not full of value because of all of the great things I do.

 even in my worst moments...
 because of God's love for me...
 I am more.



Jenny-Jenny said...

Thank you, Emily.

everydayMOM said...

Thanks for being my virtual friend, Jenny. You look adorable in that photo!!

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